By November 2015 I could really see that the relationship wasnt working. I tried and tried talking to him about it but he kept making promises that I have heard a million times before. He couldnt see that the promises werent going to make our relationship better.

He moved out for a while, during this move I should have seen what was going to come later, he either ignored the children or was over the top with them and then telling them how nasty I was for making him be on his own.  He would just walk in the house at tea time and have his food and then go.  He carried on making me promises. As Christmas time I gave in to the promises and he moved back in the house. He promised he wouldnt drink at all and that he would make a real effort with the children and me.

New Years Eve was a disaster, I had arranged for my sisters family to come and a couple of local friends.  My husband kept dissappearing and then coming back having invited more people over.  I could tell by the way he was slurring and stumbling it was another broken promise.